as crosby has been battling it out in the NICU, finn has been battling a week of a bad cough and a fever.

overall, he has been a trooper and has rolled with everything we've asked of him.  but tonight, he hit a wall and was feeling just horrible as we approached an early bedtime.

i was snuggling him and he literally did not lift his head for over 10 minutes from my shoulder.  i prayed for him and was about to put him in his crib when he quickly lifted his head and anxiously yelled out, "kiss crosby!  kiss crosby!"

my heart almost broke in two.

since finn is too young to go into the NICU to meet his brother, we have a picture in his room of him and talk about him all the time.  we have gotten in the habit of having finn give crosby's picture a kiss every night before he goes to bed.

my sweet, sick boy was too tired to play.  or to eat dinner.  or even really to talk much at all this afternoon.  but he wasn't too tired to give his little brother a bedtime kiss.

be still my heart.  i long for the day when you can do it in person, sweet finn.